sigh

why can't they understands my feelings? i got engaged just for the sake of getting it only.. i've no feelings for him ever since he shouted at me in public and yes i've been very patience since that day... its not coz of jufri i broke the engagement... its coz i've no interest in him as he himself dun give moral support enuff.... i find tat he's that type of person who likes not to learn new things.. try out new things... shall i say.. he is bodoh sombong... well... i need someone who can really support me frm my bck and knows everything... not only myself.. i want the man whos gonna be with me for the rest of my life.. to know every single thing.. just like my papa... i dun wanna leave wit someone who doesn't know a single thing... i want someone like papa.... tat is y... pertunangan is just not ikatan kawin... its also let both parties know each other well... for me... i've had enuff of his nonsense abt not knowing anything and i've really had enuff...to me am ready to take all the consequences and i know.. people are going to talk behind my back.. i dun care... let them talk all they want... i am really sick and tired of all this matter...yes he did sms me if i still love him... i told him no.. i've no more feelings for him and i will not turn my words... i will not turn my words... yes mama told me that he's gone half way crazy coz i broke wit him... yes i pity him but whos gonna pity me?? all this while i've been keeping silence.. coz i dun wanna let them know wat am feeling...like i said... its not that i broke off wit him coz of someone else..... he's not fit into my criteria... he's not like my papa... i want someone like my papa.. who can fix all things... well as for jufri even though i've known him quite new... it's as though i've known him for long time...he looks so familiar... well.. he is someone like papa... i admit it.. tat i like him... dun get me wrong... its not coz of him tat am not together wit my ex...since before i met jufri i dun have feelings for him...