going against the religion law....(thats my mom)

well am here today to tell u abt my mom again... she thinks that i'm stupid enuff that i dunno what she's doing behind my bck... she's been going to "BOMOH" to summon me to go bck home... FUCK! why the hell she must do that to me?? doesn't she believe in ALLAH??? well.. how i got to know she went to the bomoh is because i had some nightmares and weird stuffs going around me... hello plz... its me.. myself.. i want myself to be out from my own coz i dun feel too good staying in that house... i intend to leave the house to make her think and repent.... but its opposite!!!! for god sake.. why can't she sit and think on why i did this to her??? well.. she lost her 4th chance i shall say... i will never gonna turn my bck again for her ever..she made me lose respect on her..if she really wants me to go bck.. she should come and talk to me nicely.. and i know... if i ever go bck... i will not be treated any good,... she will keep on humiliating me and put more pressure on me....i am no longer stupid or slow like i used to be.... she's the one who's stupid!!! never think of the consequences...sigh... getting more older still think she's young.... can't stand her!! seriously i can't!!!

uncaring mom

hi..to care nd concern towards him...
am here to tell u a story abt myself and my family.... well its kinda hard for me now my relationship with my mom.. its tough.. she disagree with everything i do or say.. and she dun even have the second thoughts for me at all.. why i said this is because she is always on my yiunger sis side and her hubby... my mom dun seems to care abt me or my fiance.... i dun mind at all but what i dun like abt her is that she likes to spread rumours abt me.. all the bad things abt me... saying me this and that.. saying all the non-existance things abt me to people... i dun like that.. and her mouth always say all the filthy words... my sis had brought shame to the whole family... she had a child out of wedlock and now the second one is on the way to this world... out of wedlock too.... sigh.. and my mom can still support her and pity her... she dun wanna scold that damn man who has ruin her daughter's life... but she will put her care and concern more on that bastard... i dun really understand what she's trying to do... she is siding for the bad influence... and for me i'm the only one who she scolds and put a pressure on..now she is selling the house to my sister.. she told my aunt its better off she stay with my sis... well by all means go ahead..i dun mind... but dun feel regret one day and beg on my knees... thats what i dun wanna hear or see... the only person i pity is my dad...my mom is a lazy pig.. never do anything except to lay down on her bed nursing her dizziness.. i mean what the fuck.... my sis is another lazy bimbo.. she's into my mom's footsteps... like mother like daughter... hmmm... for me.. none in my family understands me except for my dad... i really dun care abt my mom or my sis anymore... i will still respect her as a 'MOTHER' not more than that.. but for my dad i have my full respect for him... my sis... there is no respect for her... i dun feel like having such sister like her in my life... she has chosen the dark future for herself...and for my mom she has lots of debts around her waist....and she expect me to pay up the gold chain which belongs to her fren... that gold chain she had put up in the pawn shop coz she is in need of money.... she was the one who borrowed that damn chain and she expect me to pay it up... what the fuck is my mom trying to do... i can live better off without her.... she's trying to make me paying all her debts for her.. no way!! am not gonna do that... i have my own responsibilities and things to do.. am not gonna pay her debts for her... who the hell she thinks i am... her ATM!?!?!?!? FUCK!! and she insist of me getting married quickly so that she can take all the dowry money... FUCK!! it is as though she is selling me away... she dun wanna see her only daughter having a perfect wedding unlike her sacred younger daughter... whom she adore so much... my sister is ugly during her wedding... my mom is a MONEY FACE person... when she has money she will forget everything.... never want to perform her duties as a muslim and always say unappropriate things... she is getting old not younger anymore..... she is unshamed of her in-laws to be and she thinks that she is prettier than me.. she always say abt my weight and body...she always think that she is beautiful but the fact her mouth stinks!!!! and she had a tooth decay on her front tooth!!! YUCKS!!! thats all becoz she say bad things abt people....her mouth never stays fresh breath... its always bad breath.... and during my wedding i want my aunt to take care of everything and i dun want my mom to do it.... coz i dun trust her...well to tell the truth i dun like or trust my mom even though she's my own flesh and blood... its very hard to trust any of my family members except for my dad...hmmm we will see what will come next and i know this thing will never end coz all the problem comes frm my idotic sister and her bastard husband!!!!!!

LONESOME

hi.. i juz wanna write in abt myself.. nobody actually knows the true me.. especially my frens..they can share with me their stories... tell me abt their relationship problems and everything but they themselves have they every ask me whether i am ok or not.... lke i said before there is stories behind in every faces and smile.....that u couldn't really figure out wat is it... for me i have alot of stories behind those laughter , face and smile... deep down in me... i am very hurtful by the way my mother has treated me... its all because of me jobless no job... she starts to humiliate me... cursing and swearing of vulgaraties at me... she will always pick on me... its an everyday routine i can say...i've been through alot not only this... the time when i was sick to death.. i nearly lost my own life...when the time my sis was pregnant... she picks on me.. i was like her punching bag and everything.. i was treated like as if i was a doll at home which she could blow off her temper at me...at one point where my fiancee was really sick and she really wants us to go for some kenduri.. i told her we can't cause my fiancee is really sick.. she told me straight on my face that she hate me.. she hate me for not going to her fren's kenduri... this was wat she told me " AKU BENCI ORG MACAM KAU.. ORG DAH JEMPUT TAK NAK PERGI!! AKU BENCI AH DGN KAU!!" and the saddest part was my fiancee overheard wat she have said to me. and he feels abit hurt as well cause it implies to him as well... i am totally sad with her attitude... she really make me feel so angry and sad... i jus couldn't turn to anyone except for my fiancee.. he's been there for all these years.... my mom and i are not in good terms anymore.... she didn't talk to me even i try my best as a daughter she just put me away frm her sight.... she will not talk nicely to me but to other people's children she will take care and concern... towards me "NO"... i am just being a lonesome daughter where her own mom doesn't care and concern abt her... i still remember the time when i was having really high fever... i can barely stand and walk... she shouted at me to do housework.. she told me not to fake it... only god knows how sick i was back then... my tempreature was 40 degress... she could still went out shopping to buy groceries with my sister and left me at home alone.... to take care of myself... from the wway my mom treat me it teaches me to be strong person... all i can do is now to save up money and get married... nobody knows how hurt i am and sad... most of my frens thought that i dun have any sadness in me... but they are wrong... my fren can tell me that they themselves have big issues... and the big issues are relationship problem.. to me thats bullshit!! the real big issues are having conflicts among ur family members!!!

watever botak

hey i've been waiting for so long for this job given by my fren botak!!! i've been waitng for it like a desperado!! how can i wait for it for almost 3 mths!!!!!! idiotrite this kinda person!! recently he msg me he is sorry for keeping me to wait for the office to be open!!! i told him straight that i am tired of waiting for him and i wait for him like mcm buah tak jatuh2!!!! i told him if u want me to start nxt mth i du think so coz i have the feeling that ur office is not ready yet!! and all the things have not move in yet!! when i asked him abt the computer he told me that i can use the laptop which i have already bought or use his first..i told him straight tat i dun have the m oney to buy the laptop and my money is not enuff for it!!! i am penniless!!! when i was about to tell him that i dun wanna wait up for him and work for him anymore... he went offline!!! aarrgghh!!! how can this be!! he is an idiot!!! big bastard!!! big fat botak bastard!!! and now its abt time for me to write for him an offline msg!! RASAIN LO BOTAK!!!

BOREDOM

hey watssup... sigh am bored!!!! help me!!! well for ur info..i am bored to desth... i just dunno wat to do... can someone plz help me!!! aaarrrggghh!! hate to be like this!!! i just wish i can start work soon i dun wanna hang in the house!! am bored!!! my fiance will not be coming tonite!! and he will only come tomorrow nite!!! am fucking bored!!! sigh!!!!! i just wish that i've got something to do!!!!!!! hmmmm!!!!!!!!!

PEOPLE!!

hey wassup... and good morning....mmm i dun really understand why some men can afford to give their wife or gf to other men to pay debts.... i dun really get it... to me they're like animals.... giving their wives or gfs away to other men for their sexual lust.... OMG!! i dun reaally agree wit that issue... as a husband and wife we shud go thru thick and thin together and not giving them away to strangers.... fuck all these people.. OMG!! hmmm....and for the wives or gfs.. some of them really enjoy doing it coz its amazing.... and sometimes its not the husband's fault to give them away... its tthe wife who wants to be fucked by other man.... geezzzz the world has gone upside down...some of the men really enjoy watching their wives or gfs getting fucked by strangers and some dun... they even wanna divorce their wives or let go of their gfs...coz they are behaving like wild animals... coz their partners cock is not big enuff for them... OMG!!! what happen to all these women.... i dun really get it... what else do they want... aren't marriage supposed to be happy and 2 couple are happy and wanna live together and grow old together wit their loved ones...hmmmm.. i hope all these people can wake up from making another mistake coz its not worth it...and repent before u regret