emotional

feeling down lately.. especially this whole mth of may...not a good mth for me i think... been crying alot... sick.... been having bad emotional....relationship wise... yes am facing difficulties.... i was about to being left alone by my partner... coz he says that i am too hot tempered... so many chances i had been given but still the same.... i dunno... did try my very best to change but still can't be recognized... well too bad.....well as a matter of fact i was called clumsy all the time and he will spit out saying he regret going out with me and getting to know me.... and he regret getting engaged to me and stuffs.... well i was heartbroken when he says that.... didn't expect something like that to come out from him..... i was very shocked... i admit that its my fault for not taking those chances seriously... now when i'm always on my own i would sit down and think bck my mistakes and all of those words that he said to me...i do feel angry but most of the time i would feel lost and unwanted... now...sometimes i feel that the love we used to have is going to perish sooner... i dunno... not like how we're used to be..... i feel like as if i'm a stranger to him all of a sudden... this feeling happens after we had a big quarrel last week..... i do feel very lost and unwanted right now.... i have no one to talk to.... i dunno... i feel so strange....very scary feeling i can say.... can just feel that something going to happen.....i dunno... haizzz